April 2013
1 post
Broken Promises: Love →
justbrokenpromises:
“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true,…
Truth.
December 2011
5 posts
past experience..
past experience has taught me that when a relationship ends, it should end in a way where both of you have benefitted from being together. that both of you come out of the relationship better people.. better people for the next ones destined to come your way. a little stronger, a little wiser, a little more prepared.
i’ve lost all such desire. i may just be kidding myself. i know deep down...
“the most painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained.”
– or the ones via text. (that should never be accepted)
“silence is the most powerful scream.”
– unknown
same feelings, different year.
have i become that stupid to think he’d honestly be different? time after time i’ve been told “you deserve better” or “he takes you for granted” but i brush it off and convince myself that he really does care about me. he does love me. its complicated, thats all.
i need to open my eyes. listen to my heart.
he’s not in love with you. the idea of an...
Reminder.
I remember when someone told me “..as long as you’re happy, but you shouldn’t have to worry about your own relationship..”
..maybe I don’t know what makes me happy anymore. I think I know but maybe I’m just to chicken to admit that it doesn’t make me as happy as I think.
this feeling sucks.
November 2011
2 posts
that time of year.
ahhh, yes the holiday season is fully upon us. thanksgiving has come and gone as has all the items from black friday. is it asking too much to want a traditional relationship? why does it seem so complicated?
why place me in a category as everyone else? if i am ever so “special” to you, why is simple phone call from you is so foreign. my expectations of you have lowered so much that...
October 2011
1 post
just save my heart from the ache..
my heavy <3 can’t sleep cause of you. I’m tired of your disappearing acts and this s#!t you put me through. That’s not being a friend, let alone it’s not even being a best friend. You’re so unworthy of the title, and yet I still give it to you. You’re unworthy of my time, yet I make it for you. Do you see it. Do you even realize. I highly doubt it.
I...
September 2011
1 post
truth hurts
Guy says: want me to come in and say hi to your dad?
Girl says: no
Guy says: you sure?
Girl says: yea I'm sure, seeing you only confuses him.
Im confused as is about where you and I stand. My dad asks about you and me all the time. So no, I do not want you to say hi to my dad til you can tell me what's up with us.
August 2011
4 posts
Thoughts.
We lack depth in our conversations. Everything we talk about is trivial and superficial. No enthusiasm. No genuineness. Just petty conversation to get to the end of the conversation. Long pauses are awkward and are followed by useless questions just to ease the still awkwardness. Questions answered in short responses as though we’re texting each other.
Conversation is lost. Communication...
“Don’t tell me ‘we could have had something…’”
– ..we had something, we just didn’t do anything about it.
So I thought...
…maybe ill start a letter to you of how what you do affects me. how what you don’t do affects me. basically ways you’re losing me. but then I thought, why bother? cause I’m sure you’ll figure it all out on your own when you realize all the things you should have done to keep me.
Love is 24/7. Not just when you find it convenient for you.
"Could have.."
You move thousands of miles away and decide to tell me that we could have had something amazing. And when I say that I ruined everything with my feelings and emotions, you take the blame instead and say you ruined it by leaving.
I won’t ever be the same because of you. <3
My unattainable has become even more unattainable.
June 2011
1 post
truth
I don’t trust you.
I don’t really trust myself actually.
You’re so good at lying to others when you’re with me, therefore, that means youre good at lying to me. I’m just as guilty of it. So who’s to blame?
Neither of us deserve this, so lets stop lying to each other and to ourselves. Its time.
May 2011
2 posts
gone.
just like that.. gone. more than 7,000 miles away, an ocean apart, and I didn’t even get to give you a proper farewell.
i know it was out of my control. i should have made an effort to try to see you. it was my mistake thinking i’d still have time. i should know better. can’t take time for granted. & now it’s too late. i suppose i’ll talk to you over internet,...
I do love you.
-will you wait for me?
April 2011
4 posts
thanks...
for treating me the way you do.
just keep it up.
because at least you’re showing me what i deserve.
it’s definitely not you.
but i’m glad everyone else gets the best of you.
thanks for leaving me with the best of nothing.
you’re the bestest friend ever, jerk.
“So I put on my make up
Put a smile on my face
And if anyone ask me everything...”
– tamia, smile
just like the rest.
thanks for becoming like all the other guys. at least you remind me exactly how the next one should treat me.
the biggest weekend of my life is coming up and i have to pretend like it’s not happening.
ill play the part. you’ll be sorry.
Vivre sans attentes.
-living without expectations.
March 2011
1 post
03.24.11
i think about you all the time.
January 2011
1 post
2011
it’s a new year. romance lingers. who knows what 2011 may bring?
come what may. i’ll protect my heart… bring on the kryptonite.
October 2010
4 posts
unfair unspoken un-you.
i’ve come to believe that it’s unfair to have “feelings” for you when i’m trying so hard to work things out with who could possibly be the person that i spend the rest of my life with.
i know that there are so many unspoken things between the two of us. it’s killer. i went 2 weeks without talking to you. without having any type of contact with you. yet i find...
“I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all...”
– coldplay, yellow
4 tags
dashboard confessional, even now
i miss you terribly. all those times we had flooded my mind today. i guess they’re right when they say “it’s over when you start thinking about the beginning.”
i just don’t understand.
September 2010
9 posts
i never told you, colbie caillat
*exactly how i...
“i saw you today… and i missed EVERYTHING about you.”
– but we agreed to pretend like it never happened.
“we write our own fairytales…”
– gg, serena to blair
miguel feat. j.cole, all i want is you
second chance.
that’s right. i’m giving you a second chance. only because even though i’ve told you that i’m done and that i don’t see us getting married, you’re still willing to try and get me to fall in love with you again.
it’s not completely your fault that i’ve fallen out of love with you. i’m just in a different place than i was from last year. with...
“take it one step at a time and focus on the task immediately in front of you,...”
– by giving yourself the present, you’d give yourself a future as well.
late night 09.04.10
food for thought
you may be worried about something you cannot predict or control. you like to be the one holding the reigns, but that’s not always possible. today you should learn a lesson in letting go. so be prepared, be open minded, be kind, but don’t be overzealous, or you just might offend someone and derail any progress you stand to make. you may not be in control of an...
“Progress typically begins with a question.”
– What do you want to ask when it comes to your love life now? Formulate your questions, figure out who needs to hear them and then go forth and ask.
August 2010
36 posts
reminder.
now that you’re back i assume you will be too. not the guy that was 500 miles away.. that guy was lonely and had no where else to turn. no no.. you’ll be the guy that isn’t considerate. who cares only for himself and what others think.. and i’ll just be some girl you’ve known for a long time who you claim to care a great deal for.
i won’t put up with it....
“It’s not like i don’t think about you.”
– i think about you..everyday.
6 tags
the starting line, i’m real [j.lo cover]
“I started blurring the lines
Because I didn’t care
I started crossing the line...”
– tatu, loves me not
truth is..
alright, i do miss you best friend. just not in the way you’d want me to miss you. i miss hanging out with you, like going out to eat, or watching sports, and hitting the park.
i know you miss the part of ‘us’ where we can hold hands, cuddle, kiss, & basically be a couple. i also know that you miss me as just a friend. you just can’t have it both ways. not this time...
“it’s LOVE when all you want is that person to be happy..”
– even if you’re not part of their happiness.
4 tags
mariah carey, always be my baby
“no expectations, no disappointments…”
– no more hurting.
In the time it would take you to learn from your...
you make me not care.
unspoken.
unspoken words yearning to be said.
i’ve basically moved on. i’ve been done. since the end of last year. i moved on before we broke up. yet, i’ve stuck around to hopefully keep this friendship we’ve had for so long. i still think of you first and foremost as my best friend. i still love you. i still care for you, as my best friend. not so much as a love interest. i know...
4 tags
“The only thing that matters is just following your heart, and eventually...”
– the ataris, in this diary
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I know now I was naive never knew where this would...